Whenever I tell someone I am a Senior the response is usually the same, "what do you want to do with your life?" I don't know how to respond to that. My family is telling me to go one way and my dreams are pushing me another way. Don't get me wrong, I want what my family is telling me to do, I would love being a doctor helping those who need me. But my passion is acting. I love being on the stage, all eyes on me. If it was up to me I would love to be a theater teacher or possibly an english teacher. I know the choice is mine but I can't live with letting my parents down and not following the path they've established. Graduation is fastly approaching and I have no idea which path I will be taking when the time comes. I've just got to take things day by day and see where they lead, maybe a new dream will form and I'll follow that, I don't know. For right now I'm just putting one foot in front of the other, hoping I'm making the right choices in life, making mistakes while I still can.
Hey Gigi, I can't believe you've been gone an entire year. I miss you so much. I wish we would've been closer before you left but our fractured relationship with Grandma sorta prevented that.I remember getting the call from my mom while I was at Disneyland with my friends saying that I needed to call Grandma Darcy because you were probably going to die that night. I broke down crying at the Tower of Terror, my friends held me on the sidewalk while I cried. I finally put myself together long enough to call you and say goodbye. You didn't answer me and when I hung up I lost it again. I pulled myself together so I could enjoy the rest of my trip, anxiously waiting for the phone call that you had moved on. I returned home and you were doing better, all the worry and panic that I felt was finally gone... I still had more time. I wasn't expecting to receive that message from Grandma on the morning of April 3, 2012 that you had passed on in your sleep. I sat at the table ...
But would you rather "not let your family down" and perhaps have regrets about not following your heart down the road? You still have plenty of time to figure out what you want to do. Make sure it is absolutely what YOU want.
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