Just Being Myself

Hey Gigi, I can't believe you've been gone an entire year. I miss you so much. I wish we would've been closer before you left but our fractured relationship with Grandma sorta prevented that.I remember getting the call from my mom while I was at Disneyland with my friends saying that I needed to call Grandma Darcy because you were probably going to die that night. I broke down crying at the Tower of Terror, my friends held me on the sidewalk while I cried. I finally put myself together long enough to call you and say goodbye. You didn't answer me and when I hung up I lost it again. I pulled myself together so I could enjoy the rest of my trip, anxiously waiting for the phone call that you had moved on. I returned home and you were doing better, all the worry and panic that I felt was finally gone... I still had more time. I wasn't expecting to receive that message from Grandma on the morning of April 3, 2012 that you had passed on in your sleep. I sat at the table ...

Okay so I'm a huge Smash fan and this song "Caught in the Storm"  is one of the songs from the new season which I happen to love. This song fits how I'm feeling right now. My six month relationship ended today (yes I know that's short but for me that is really long) and this song fits the break-up I think. I was so caught up with the relationship not because I loved him. I was merely infatuated with him, and as time grew longer the flame was dulling out but I was so caught up in the storm that had become our relationship. I know that if you truly love someone you let them go or so the saying says. I believe that if you love someone, if you truly love them you will find a way to stay. All good things must eventually come to an end and in a way I'm thankful this relationship ended, yeah it hurts but him and I both knew it wasn't going anywhere once I head out for college. I know I will find someone who I truly love, it's just going to take lots and lots ...

Competition season is vastly approaching, meaning my life has taken a turn into Crazy Town. Sometimes I wonder why I signed up for two AP classes, Theater, Band, and Medical Anatomy while I'm trying to juggle working too. It is extremely tiring to be doing all these things but the rewards make it all worth it. It'll be nice to not have to take English or Government in college (if I pass the AP test) and the memories I make with my  performing arts friends will last me forever, not to mention it is so cool to learn all our body can do, oh and work is such a fun little family for me and the money in my bank account doesn't hurt. Stuff like this makes the craziness worth it. I'm not one to just sit still, I love having stuff going on in my life. Back to the topic... Competition Season. AH!!!! I LOVE competition season. I love pouring hours into my instrument hoping the rest of the band does the same thing and maybe this is the year we'll take state (fingers crossed) I...

     Never have I been to a more amazing school than Pine View High School. They are so generous and giving to the community. Every year they do a Mr. PVHS pageant where all the different clubs in school raise money  that in turn goes to a family with a medical condition. The first two years we raised money for Jessica Schmidt and Taleah Stevenson. Both these girls were under five years old and suffering with cancer. It was amazing to see how the school came together to support them, both years we raised over $1000! I love seeing that sense of community in the school. This year we are raising money for Talen Vaughn, he's a six year old boy who was born with a yet to be diagnosed disease which has left him paralyzed. I have no doubt in my mind that this year's fundraiser will be a successful one :)      The Mr. PVHS Pageant is something else entirely on it's own. Each club sends one boy to represent them. That boy is in charge of earning mone...

     Whenever I tell someone I am a Senior the response is usually the same, "what do you want to do with your life?" I don't know how to respond to that. My family is telling me to go one way and my dreams are pushing me another way. Don't get me wrong, I want what my family is telling me to do, I would love being a doctor helping those who need me. But my passion is acting. I love being on the stage, all eyes on me. If it was up to me I would love to be a theater teacher or possibly an english teacher. I know the choice is mine but I can't live with letting my parents down and not following the path they've established. Graduation is fastly approaching and I have no idea which path I will be taking when the time comes. I've just got to take things day by day and see where they lead, maybe a new dream will form and I'll follow that, I don't know. For right now I'm just putting one foot in front of the other, hoping I'm making the right cho...

     I work at a fast food restaurant in the town where I live. In this job I come across many different people, some of them I like and some of them I really want to get out of my store. The people that especially fall under that category are: mess makers, bum heads, and last minute customers.      Mess Makers : These are the customers that come in and make a complete and total mess of the place. They completely wreck my beautiful dining room, leaving their fry cartons and wrappers on the floor, food all over the place, maybe even just walking out while their tray is still on the table. People who move my chairs and tables and don't replace them fall under this category too. Sometimes they wreck the bathrooms too or the condiment stand. Most of the time there is nothing you can do with customers like these as they aren't truly identified until after they leave.      Bum Heads: These could be anybody. They are rude and treat us cashiers lik...