Life is such a precious gift that we have been given. Many of us take it for granted and we often forget that life is not a "forever" gift and one day we will breathe our last breath and leave this world behind. I am constantly being reminded how short life is lately. My friend Sh'Kell is such a funny girl, even though she knows I am happily in a relationship she is ALWAYS trying to set me up with her friends. I usually tell her no, but I've been debating over whether or not my current relationship is worth it because he's leaving in August for Basic Training and has made it very clear that we may not make it after that (I am willing to fight though, I REALLY like this one, he makes me happy but what do I know? I'm only 17). Anyways getting back to the point... because I've been debating when Sh'Kell told me yesterday that she had gotten her friend Zac to come down with her boyfriend tomorrow (so today), I didn't say no I mean what's the harm in simply meeting the boy? Imagine my shock when I check Facebook and I see a post that some kid named Zac died last night. I immediately texted Sh'Kell who confirmed that yes, it was the boy she wanted to set me up with. My mind has been reeling ever since. I'm not devastated or heartbroken and crushed about his passing, I never even knew this kid. I am however reminded of the people I've known who have unexpectedly died. My friend Nolan passed away a couple summers ago, he had just recently turned 18 and went to sleep and never woke up... we still don't know the cause of death. Even more recent is sweet baby Nathaniel (Nate) who died at the tragic age of just eight months. Both of these deaths impacted so many people and they were both so young. The direction I'm going with this and I guess this is a point I may have made before is that life is short. Live in the moment, and remember that this day could very well be your last. Are you living in a way in which you want to be remembered? It was too early to tell for Nate, but I know had he been given the chance he would have been amazing just like his parents who are both people that I look up to. Nolan was a truly amazing person, that is part of the reason why his death impacted so many because during his life he touched so many people. I remember him now as the person who could always make me smile even on my worst days, and as the person with a huge heart. Are you living your life in a way in which when you die you'll be remembered positively like Nolan and Nate? Or is it time for a change of heart. I hope that my lifestyle is one that is impacting many, that people look at me and think "she is one special girl and a daughter of God." that those who know me will reflect and remember when I'm gone all the positive things I've done even though I know I have my fair share of negative things but hey, nobody's perfect! We are most remembered by our actions, when we are dead and gone, that is how we are remembered, by the things we said and the things we did, by how we treated others. Just remember you were given the gift of life... use it wisely because it can be taken away in a heartbeat.
Hey Gigi, I can't believe you've been gone an entire year. I miss you so much. I wish we would've been closer before you left but our fractured relationship with Grandma sorta prevented that.I remember getting the call from my mom while I was at Disneyland with my friends saying that I needed to call Grandma Darcy because you were probably going to die that night. I broke down crying at the Tower of Terror, my friends held me on the sidewalk while I cried. I finally put myself together long enough to call you and say goodbye. You didn't answer me and when I hung up I lost it again. I pulled myself together so I could enjoy the rest of my trip, anxiously waiting for the phone call that you had moved on. I returned home and you were doing better, all the worry and panic that I felt was finally gone... I still had more time. I wasn't expecting to receive that message from Grandma on the morning of April 3, 2012 that you had passed on in your sleep. I sat at the table
Good one, Becs. :)
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